Mi gordita

My little fatso

When my little girl was born she was a “normal” baby, she weight 6lb. 14 oz. As the days passed she gained weight like no other. On her two week visit she already weight 9lb. By six months she weight 26lbs. Doctors talked about having to do all kinds of exams, but since she was breastfed only, they decided to wait. When she started walking, which was at ten months, she started to lose some of that weight. She has been losing so much weight; by her 12mth checkup they send her to have all kinds of lab work done, this time because of her weight loss. On Tuesday, she had a doctor’s appointment and they told me what I did not want to hear. I nursed my son for 26 months; I believe that one of the best things one as a mother can give to our children is those nurturing moments. You don’t only supply with one of the best nurturing foods, but the bond between you and your child is permanent. For these reasons I had planned to nurse my little girl as long as I could, not exceeding the 26 months. But Zidtzi, does not like to eat solid foods. I have tried to give her all kinds of foods but she won’t have a full meal. She will try everything once, but one to two bites into the meal and she won’t eat any more. Obviously this is not good; whatever I can give her is not enough. She is growing and she needs more than just mommy’s milk. Today she weights 22 lbs. She is a tall little girl and there for she needs more nutrition. So, the doctor told me it was time to stop nursing her. At first I thought “she is crazy, she can’t tell me what to do.” Deep inside I knew she was right, so, I stopped. It has been hard, I see my little girls face and I feel so bad. She still rubs herself against my breast, only making me feel guilty. I have to admit that I am cheating a little. I nurse her during the night. I hope that this goes by fast and that she starts eating better. I am doing all I can to push her into eating, but it is hard.